My mental state is deteriorating. I feel the need to talk to someone. Unfortunately the chat for me still in't working. In life I've failed at everything that matters, jobs, relationships, family communication, school. My life feels like it's just fading away. I don't want to talk to any of the hotlines, they'd just send the police over again. I'm trying to stay out of the Psychiatric units, cos i know i'd never come out, that's be a fate worse than death. But all i want to do right now is cut and hit myself. I've just failed at everything in life with any meaning.