Hi. My name is Adam. Since about middle school I've been battling on and off suicidal thoughts. Not only that but I've also attempted suicide 3 times. Only one of which actually hurt me and put me in the hospital. For awhile now I've just felt hopeless and alone despite living with my girlfriend of 3 years who is amazing and supportive. I've found myself feeling more and more depressed the more I think about school and my future as I've never really been good at anything and I'm not all too exceptional at school and my motivation is pretty bad too. I wake up every morning feeling pretty sick and it takes me forever to get ready for work because the first thought in my head when I wake up is how I want to kill myself. I don't mean to be so self loathing but I guess I just made this to put my thoughts and feelings to text. Thank you for reading.