Hi everyone, seeing as I was around I thought I'd write a little update so no one worries that I've fallen off the edge of the world (I would put this in N&A but it's not really news and I have nothing to announce, so yeah...) First of all, hello anyone who missed me! Hope you're as well as can be expected. I'm doing ok all things considered, I really needed the break from here. It gave me time to think about things properly and really be honest with myself about my life and who I am for the first time in years. I'm not back, one of the things I've come to realise is that this place really isn't good for me. There are people I miss but unfortunately the little support I was getting didn't outway the negativity I was getting from here as well. That's no one's fault (if it's anyone's it's mine), sometimes that's just the way life goes. I've been feeling a lot more mentally and emotionally strong lately, but it's still fragile and I don't want to undo the progress I've made. I think I'm (finally) maturing too, my priorities have changed. Unfortunately there's bad stuff too, my health is getting worse (probably not helped by the fact that I still haven't seen a doctor in the right field to diagnose me properly, only a month and a bit more to wait though). I'm in pain all the time now and the medication I'm on hardly helps at all, I'm having to walk everywhere using a stick. It's really getting me down to be honest, especially the not being able to work and hardly being able to go out anywhere. I'm keeping as busy as I can though. If anyone's up to giving me a bit of support through this that would be really great. Not sure when I'll be logging on here properly again but I should be checking my PMs every few days (I'm not up to using any IMs regularly yet though). A very late thank you to all the people who wished me a happy birthday and who left messages for me when I decided step down from the staff and come on here less - even though I didn't reply or take up those offers to talk it meant a massive deal to me. I think that's all I wanted to say. Goodnight all, I'll probably post again in another couple of months. Take care.