Just gotta blow off some of this anger. Was stuck in the psych ward a month, everyday I'd go out to the smoking area and be hassled and even argued with by people wanting a cigarette. No matter how many times I tried explaining I didn't have many and didn't have enough cash to buy more they'd keep at me till I gave them one, resulting in days where I'd run out. Its tough enough being locked up all day, receiving ECT treatment and talking to a never-ending parade of shrinks about stuff I'd rather not talk about without being forced to deal with withdrawal from my only addiction and the only thing that keeps me calm somedays.. Sooo.. I finally get into the hospital housing which my shrinks and psychologists tell me is so much better, and it is, its great, so quiet, I have a little freedom, my computer and other small things that make it so much better than the psych ward. But I'm still being hassled for smokes, and I mean hassled, and for cash as well now which I don't have. All the other people in here with me are on the DSP (disability support pension) which I'm still waiting on, they get 300 dollars more a fortnight than I do and they're not still paying rent and household bills like I am. Atm I can't handle the constant harrassment and just give them a damn smoke and even apologise for not being able to lend them money. But inside I'm about ready to just punch the next person or scream and yell at them, especially one guy tonight who was at me for half an hour complaining about his mental illness and how he can't handle the voices in his head when he has no ciggarettes, jesus, welcome to the club, what does he think, that I'm in here by choice on holidays? People wonder why I'm so quiet and stay in my room all day.. I know its a bad habit and I should quit but damn things have me in a deathgrip. Feel better now, sorry about the rant.