Things are bad, like probably the worst ever, and I can't make myself call anyone for help, something about saying the words, I need help, or I am on the verge of killling myself, or I feel so bad I can barely move or I keep crying for no damn reason, I can't eat, I don't even want to shower, and the apathy sometimes stops me dead in my tracks...why can't I tell the people who are there to help me, who I pay to help me, why can't I pick up the phone and tell them? Why do I feel so intrusive? So weak? So.... I dont know, inadequate. What would I even say? Why am I convinced that nothing they could say would help? Why won't I give them a chance? Is anyone good at calling their treatment team for help? How do you do it? What do you say?