I feel so alone right now. Actually I physically spend most of my time alone but feeling isolated no. Someone I got to know on a different forum without warning has asked to have her account and posts deleted. Can not but help feel she is reacting to my asking her if she was angry with me. I know it could be something completely unrelated but I feel shut out. I have no other way of contacting her. I am so far down now I do not know which way is up. To further complicate things after tomorrow my T is on vacation for two weeks. So I am alone and depressed. After I see my pdoc on Wednesday, I think I will have an SI session to get this out of my system. Who knows I may just take a few too many pills to knock myself out the same day.