I can't trust anyone to be there for me. One minute my girlfriend loves me, the next she's mad at me, and I really don't know how to stop this from happening (I know being less selfish would be a good start, but I always screw up). I feel like I'm just waiting for her to find someone better and leave me. My mom is getting up there in years and will be gone eventually. My dad died. I don't really have friends. I don't have a job. I'm too anxious to socialize with people. I can't think of a reason to stay alive right now.