I am just so bored of everyday life. I don't even have any interests. Only things I've ever had interests in is things from childhood (toys and childhood games). My painful addiction to online gaming has kept me busy all these years, but now my current game just fails to satisfy me anymore and I can't find any other game I feel like playing so I'm pretty much going through withdrawal now. :sad: I'm extremely impatient; can't even sit down to watch TV or a movie, read a book, play with my cats, or even just relax. I also have poor social skills and don't know anything that would allow me to communicate with other people such as anything about sports teams or the economy. Have tried sports and all kinds of games and activities with no success - I just see them as chores and have the painful inkling to get back on the computer, even though I no longer have a game to make me feel comfortable. Have tried working and college classes to keep me busy and just burn time, but I feel so trapped and so incapable. I've been on over 30 medications with no success, and my doctor says there really isn't that much out there I haven't been on. Have only gotten nasty side effects from them such as anxiety attacks and a permanent skin disorder. I'm now on my 7th therapist with no sign of progress. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to live another day. And of course I'm too much of a coward to consider suicide, especially after researching the failure rates of the most popular methods. I wish I could stay asleep forever.