hi all still here,what takes us to the edge of life/death and we somehow manage to live to fight another day? i have intense waves of feeling suicidal. im ok for a while then i'm plunged into despair just dreading the future!! just wonder if it takes more courage than alot of people will ever know to come back from the brink. oddly enough despite the intense distress i feel, i also feel a sense of calm and command over it! maybe its the only thing you have control over! ive thought all day how, where,when i'll do it and ive felt good to feel in command. am i strange or is this common? iv'e read some very powerful experiences on the sf and everyone has had to really steal themselves to share the pain with others! sf your'e a great organisation touching people and giving hope to some gutsy people. thankyou, mart.