today was about the closest I had ever been my therapist even called in the police but I decided to sign a wavier that said I would call if I had suicidal feelings
I am just unable to accept this new life I have created for myself, just completly unable
I am 28 years I have never really been with a girl in my life and I will never be with a girl for medical reasons
How the fuck do I accept this, the only thing that ever made me happy or made me feel good was being around a girl and the chance to actually be with a girl would have been extacy now it is gone forever
How the fuck do I go on, no one on this planet would have appreciated being with a girl more then me
Now it is mother fucking gone, gone forever, the only thing that ever made me happy
How the fuck do I accept this
Its been about 4 months and it is just getting worse, my body is telling me to somehow accept this but my mind is telling me otherwise, I just cant accept this, how the fuck do I accept this
I am completly unable, a life of being alone and miserable
I felt so close to killing myself today, or maybe I wasnt ready to kill myself, just looking for a last cry for help
God How I cant accept this thing, no mother fucking way, just fucking impossible
THe only thing that ever made me happy is now gone forever
I cant even sleep anymore because my body is telling me to give up but my mind is telling me to somehow not be able to accept it, I cant fucking accept this
I am just unable to accept this new life I have created for myself, just completly unable
I am 28 years I have never really been with a girl in my life and I will never be with a girl for medical reasons
How the fuck do I accept this, the only thing that ever made me happy or made me feel good was being around a girl and the chance to actually be with a girl would have been extacy now it is gone forever
How the fuck do I go on, no one on this planet would have appreciated being with a girl more then me
Now it is mother fucking gone, gone forever, the only thing that ever made me happy
How the fuck do I accept this
Its been about 4 months and it is just getting worse, my body is telling me to somehow accept this but my mind is telling me otherwise, I just cant accept this, how the fuck do I accept this
I am completly unable, a life of being alone and miserable
I felt so close to killing myself today, or maybe I wasnt ready to kill myself, just looking for a last cry for help
God How I cant accept this thing, no mother fucking way, just fucking impossible
THe only thing that ever made me happy is now gone forever
I cant even sleep anymore because my body is telling me to give up but my mind is telling me to somehow not be able to accept it, I cant fucking accept this