The day of my deed is creeping closer. My method is painful im sure though I deserve it. My 8th grade health teacher said that if one ever was to commit suicide, they should make it as painful as it was for their birth. That kind of stuck with me. So I will make my exit in a 25-72 hour period, whenever the dosage has done what it needs to do to me. I wish someone would just tell me I'm doing the right thing. I know I am. I suppose I'm on the wrong forum for that, though to be fair, on the pro-suicide forums, they're all dead. I wish someone would understand my thinking, but everyone insists I have something to live for, but none of you know me, and as hard as I try to explain it on here, you all just don't get it. I keep posting expecting someone to tell me I'm doing this for the betterment of the world. It's this or a lifetime of commitment in a hospital. Though, then I'd be wasting everyone else's drugs and money and time and I feel as though this option is a better one.