In my town there is a tall bridge, in the background cars make a muffled grumble as they blitz by, underneath the dark merciless river becons me. It's cold and the wind is blowing unbearably tonight...
I have no one in the world who really knows me. It sounds stupid to me to be lamenting like this, to even start a post like this but I have no more hope in the world... I'm a loneley soul at only 24. I have travelled my whole life, everytime leaving an existence behind, shedding a piece of my heart... Now, alone and hurt I have nowhere to turn so I spin endlessly, carrying an incesant hate in my belly. Mostly towards myslef, how funny and how wretched...
I was diagnosed with BPD six months ago, am on medication and seeing a doctor... I really need someone to talk to... I am the vilain in every spectrum of my life, when really I'm just lost and in terrible pain, gropping at everyone histerically for acceptance and love...
Maybe sharing my story openly (yet annonymously
) will help relieve some of my strife so I can learn more about myself and others in the same situation...
Every night I get nearer and nearer the breaking point. I howl as tears stream from my face, I wail... Have you ever been so close to dying while being alive?
Sending love and support to those who are giving up.
Eagerly awaiting a reply... Thanks*
I have no one in the world who really knows me. It sounds stupid to me to be lamenting like this, to even start a post like this but I have no more hope in the world... I'm a loneley soul at only 24. I have travelled my whole life, everytime leaving an existence behind, shedding a piece of my heart... Now, alone and hurt I have nowhere to turn so I spin endlessly, carrying an incesant hate in my belly. Mostly towards myslef, how funny and how wretched...
I was diagnosed with BPD six months ago, am on medication and seeing a doctor... I really need someone to talk to... I am the vilain in every spectrum of my life, when really I'm just lost and in terrible pain, gropping at everyone histerically for acceptance and love...
Maybe sharing my story openly (yet annonymously
Every night I get nearer and nearer the breaking point. I howl as tears stream from my face, I wail... Have you ever been so close to dying while being alive?
Sending love and support to those who are giving up.
Eagerly awaiting a reply... Thanks*