I've tried to kill myself 2 times.. The first time I took a overdoses meds. But I survied, a friend of mine found me, and called 112, When I was in the hospital they let me drink some black stuff, to nutrilaised my organs?? I was so angry that I survied, I wanna do it again, but this time better, but I didn't get the change, because they put me in a..................... I don't know how to call it in english, but it's for people who are methally not well.. A kind of hospital? In dutch we call it a kliniek When I was home again after months, I did my second suicide, I take again alot of meds, and this time, I drink alot of alcohol.. I pasted out, and because it was my birthday, people found me again.. But this time it was bad.. I was gone from the world.. And I can't remember a thing.. Only the things that been told me.. In the hospital they put a tube in my ?stummage? and clean it with water.. Everything came out.. Al the pills, and booze.. Again they didn't let me go home, but I don't want to stay, so I ran away.. Sinds then I didn't do any suicide again.. (last one 14.januari) I reached a point in my life that I wanna fight.. But it's hard.. Somethins the moodswings are so bad, that I wanna kill me self again.. But every time i'm okay.. I'm really sorry for my bad english, but I never learned it on school or something.. So i'm doing my best..