I tried to kill myself earlier this evening. < Mod edit Hazel: Method > So damn annoyed that my plan was foiled. Have tried distracting all evening. It's still on my mind. Thing is. I have these pills. Mixture of stuff. And am tempted to take them. But then am tempted to go walking and find the nearest bridge. I called the Crisis team earlier this evening and they just said take 5mg diazapam and distract yourself. Well it didn't work. Seems pointless calling them again. I just feel really lonely. I have mental health problems and have been really ill for ten years. I'm tired of struggling. But I don't feel like I've got anywhere left to turn. It is all so pointless. I've been cutting to try and distract from the suicidal thoughts, but that's not reallyworking either. I'm sorry. I think I've given up.