I dunno what to do. I just come here and waste time mostly posting in the Coffee Loungue in the trivial threads. Nobody here knows me, cares about me, can't make connections, can't do anything at all. I don't know if I should keep living or kill myself, I need some guidance, some direction, I guess I need someone to tell me what to do, can't do anything myself. I'm just so confused and lost. I don't know why I shouldn't kill myself but then I'm afraid of death and the afterlife is there is one but then I'm stuck in this shitty life of mine. So what can I do, just try to make the most of it? Its so hard since I've wasted my whole life so far and been a loser and so its REALLY hard to change and become "normal". I haven't been raised right, raised normally so I'm going to be abnormal my whole life. Sounds dramatic I know. I need help but dunno what kind of help. Your all going to say I should not kill myself. I need some reasons to live or something. Help please!!!!!!!!!! EDIT: The only thing I'm sure of is that I don't like my situation, I want to be happy. I dunno if I can ever be happy though. And I need help to talk more, express myself, help myself.