My name is Andrew and I am an earlier goer of highscool. I am very very upset right now and I feel as if I want to kill myself very badly. This is not the first time I wanted to kill myself a couple times in the last year ive been getting thoughts. This typ eof situation has happened a few times in the past but this one seems like the worst. My situation is that I have a bunch of friends who like to hang out a lot, its friday afternoon right now, and most them have sports practice. Its hard to reach them and they usually do something, and usually i see them later. But this time its different, first i call one he says he is not doing anything so i take his word, but then try calling a bunch of th eother people... all them do not answer then I call the first one up again, and he just answers and hangs up, then i send text messages asking why they are avoiding me, i just get replies saying go away... The problem is I am easily offended, and on the firday afternoon like this where I am VERY BORED, things like these make me so dman depressed. The same kid who said go away Ive been friends with for a long time, but half the time hes so damn annoying and always tried just to make fun of people. I know some of you might think that I migh tnot pick the best ideal friends but most of them are much better... the problem is they all are centered among this one kid who is large, sort of smart but stupid obnoxious crap who thinks he owns everything. Also other friends I have outside this group I just cant get with for some reason. The first group im friends with iv ebeen friends with them for a long time, but at school I dont have ANY classes with them, and basicly im centered among a bunch of other people I talk to a lot at school but dont outside of school, so I just have nowhere else to go. I cant tell my parents tha tI am depressed because I guess im too god damn shy. Please I need help bad.