So, i started college today. Everyone was telling me it would be a good idea. It will make me feel better, be a good distraction, keep me busy and give me something to focus on. The truth is, I hated it. Yes, it kept me busy and gave me something to focus on. But during all the classes the same thoughts were running through my mind. "I don't want to be here" and "I just want to die". The only good thing about it is that it stops me from thinking about food and eating. In fact, it actually made me realise I don't want a life. I don't want to live. I'm not interested in going out and making something of myself. I just want to stay in my room at home and waste away and die.