If anyone could say anything to me to keep me from being so down, I would greatly appreciate it. I am currently feeling fat, worthless, and like I do not deserve any of the things I have. My family is so supportive of me, but I do not participate in their lives as I should. My husband does everything because he knows I am not well, mentally speaking. I should have had a great day today. I went out to see a Major League Baseball game with my two kids and my husband and a bunch of other families. But while there were some moments of enjoyment, I just felt, for the most part, very depressed. Is there anything I should be doing or could be doing to make me feel less depressed? Sometimes I just want to drive away from everything and never look back, or go to sleep forever. Or be diagnosed with cancer. I've had two friends die recently of cancer. They both led such wonderful lives and were wonderful people. Why couldn't that have been me??? My husband is the better person in the relationship. He does everything. He would be better off with someone else. Maybe I should just ask for a divorce. Maybe then I would feel less guilty about not participating in my family's life.