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Well, I have no idea how to start this.. But I don't even know what I'm feeling.. *sigh*
One of the people I knew was hit by a car today and she's still in the hospital. She txted me and told me to tell her that I love her in case she would die. I told her that. She hasnt replied since then. I mean, I thought I didn't care about anything or anyone except for those that I love, but it turns out that I'm scared. Really scared. I'm scared that she'll leave me. I'm afraid that somewhere, someone would die. I don't know how to explain this but I care about everyone I've met..probably too much.. >.<
I just have no idea what to do.. Just need to let this out. I don't know how I feel anymore. Before I knew if I was happy, depressed, angry, or scared. But now I feel nothing, except this sense of emptiness.
I wish that none of my friends would leave me again, it hurts so much. I'm scared of losing people. I'm afraid that someone would leave me.. T__T *sigh* Maybe the best solution is just to trust no one, but I care way too much.. >.<
Ok I hope this isn't *too random*.. but hmm thanks for reading if you are.. :hug:
One of the people I knew was hit by a car today and she's still in the hospital. She txted me and told me to tell her that I love her in case she would die. I told her that. She hasnt replied since then. I mean, I thought I didn't care about anything or anyone except for those that I love, but it turns out that I'm scared. Really scared. I'm scared that she'll leave me. I'm afraid that somewhere, someone would die. I don't know how to explain this but I care about everyone I've met..probably too much.. >.<
I just have no idea what to do.. Just need to let this out. I don't know how I feel anymore. Before I knew if I was happy, depressed, angry, or scared. But now I feel nothing, except this sense of emptiness.
I wish that none of my friends would leave me again, it hurts so much. I'm scared of losing people. I'm afraid that someone would leave me.. T__T *sigh* Maybe the best solution is just to trust no one, but I care way too much.. >.<
Ok I hope this isn't *too random*.. but hmm thanks for reading if you are.. :hug: