So far to go

I am suicidal. I have health problems that I cant deal with. I will never have a girlfriend and I dont know how to go about the next 40 years of my life. I am only in my 20's.

Everyone keeps telling me to hang around and not to kill myself. What for? I am just sitting here waiting to die. Hoping to die.

I dont want to die, I just dont want to live MY life. It is a joke. It goes from bad to worse. I cant beleive life could be so harsh and cruel. Every day is just one big disappointment.

 

No matter what you go through, you can be assured someone else is going through way worse.

Are you starving or homeless? No. (Otherwise you wouldn't be on a computer) Are you in excrutiating physical pain? (I mean REAL pain; not just cutting)
No. (Otherwise you wouldn't be typing)

I know it's hard, especially for people like us, but if you can just TRY to look on the good side of things; just TRY to see the good things in your life, then you'll be a lot happier.

If you're life sucks, make it so it's better. Your life isn't going to be happier if you just sit there complaining. Find talents, find things you enjoy doing. Make something of yourself. Give yourself from credit and dignity!

If you're life was a waste, God (or whoever created us) wouldn't of bothered to let you be born. But he (or whoever created us, depending on your beliefs) DID bring you into this world. Be grateful! Do just one thing you can be proud of. Make just one goal you can really work towards. I know it sounds impossible, but it's not.

 

I get what your saying, but I dont think you can compare one person's physical pain to another person's emotional pain. Both can be devastating. If I could just pick myself up and go and find somthing to enjoy in life, I would'nt be here writing this.

I beleive in god. I just dont know why I am here. Even if I knew why I was here, I probably still wouldnt want to be here. I just dont get it and I am losing the plot.

 

You can go do whatever you want. It's your own life. You're just being lazy and feeling sorry for yourself.

And believe me, I can easily name/point out people with way more emotional pain than you. There's always someone who feels more pain than someone else.

Why not go somewhere? Right now. Just get up and go for a ride or go socialize. Or maybe meet people on chat sites and have fun with them. Even just chatting with other happy/funny people will cheer you up considerably. (You'd be surprised, trust me)

 

It sounds like you feel totally overwhelmed by everything thats going on now.

Maybe something that might help is to try and change the way you think. If you think negatively about everything that will make youi feel worse. So a good way to try and overcome that is to temper each negative thought with a positive one, like 'I'll never have a girlfriend' (which is what you said), can then be followed by 'well, actually I don't know that for sure because no one knows the future'. It could help you to see things in a realistic light. It won't be easy, but it can be done.

Have you ever had any professional therapy to help you? Maybe that's a good place to start. Therapists can help you come to terms with pain and trauma in yoru life and also find a way to look forward.

You could try your doctors, they would be a good place to start.

You mention that you have health problems, and that you can't deal with them. Maybe therapy might help you find a way to deal with them too. You don't say that you have a terminal illness or anything like that, but one that you can't deal with, so maybe you need some help dealing with it. Things might seem insurmountable, but you can learn to live with lots of things, if you keep trying and fighting.

It might seem hard but there is a lot that you can do to help yourself if you are willing to. Your life could be decent and fun. You don't know what the future holds. If you can keep fighting and do everything you can to make things better, then you should have a decent future.

Hang in there and take care

 

Bleedingkisses how would you know what ive been through? You know nothing about me.

 

You know nothing about anyone else, either.

You sit there and complain and cry that you're so depressed and want to die, it's borderline pathetic. You're making it so people probably want you to die so you'll stop complaining.

Geez get a real life and stop complaining on a stupid suicide forum, will ya'?

 

Shes just trying to help, dont lose it.

 

Thanks Scum, you sound like you know where I am at. I doubt the other two have ever been there or they would not respond by telling me to "get over it". Sometimes it aint that simple.

Thanks for your help anyway, but I think I will figure it out on my own.

 

I know what it's like to see no hope, but I fight. And you can fight to. You can fight against all the crap you can see in your life. You can fight to make things better, and if you want things to be better, that is what you will have to do.

Find your fight and go for it. You'll get there!

 

xxxbleedingkissesxxx your responces are horrible. why are u even here? cause u r suicidal yourself or to make people feel worse?

 

Do you think life gets easier as it goes along? I think I am finding that I am just becoming immune to everything. Yet every now and then I crash and when I do its messy. Kind of everything is just bottled up and then it explodes. Gee I hope it gets easier to deal with as you grow up or im in a lot of trouble.

 

Hi lostit. For me, life gets easier as I go along (knock on wood!)...

bleedingkisses obviously has his/her own issues and is just being cruel to you. No fair

It gets better and God wants you here (IMHO)

You sound like a strong person and I believe that you will make it, and not JUST make it, but live a very long, very happy life.

PM me if you want...I'm here!