I am suicidal. I have health problems that I cant deal with. I will never have a girlfriend and I dont know how to go about the next 40 years of my life. I am only in my 20's. Everyone keeps telling me to hang around and not to kill myself. What for? I am just sitting here waiting to die. Hoping to die. I dont want to die, I just dont want to live MY life. It is a joke. It goes from bad to worse. I cant beleive life could be so harsh and cruel. Every day is just one big disappointment.