Hey guys. I am into the second week of my midterms. My meds kicked in a while ago and I feel empty when I'm supposed to feel sad. Also I became very reckless. I can't study at all, I just didn't give a crap about it until now. Also my migraine played a part in me not studying... I am afraid I am failing most of my classes and tomorrow I have a very important test coming up. I feel so stressed. I cried when my dad called me. I feel sick, I wanna throw up. I am out of words to explain my frustration. I will probably have to repeat this semester... I am just so disgusted with myself. Those people that hurt me probably know that I am failing and they are doing just fine. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others but I hate being weak. I don't want them to pity me and laugh at me behind my back. I wanna be successful and show them I'm fine(even though I'm not). I could really use some support and your well wishes. Thank you.