Urrg and today I thought I was having a good day, I came to college with a fake smile on my face and as the day progressed I found I didn't need to fake anymore but right now just as the day is nearly fucking through I get another one of life's slaps in the face. I got a text message from my best freind saying I should 'rot in hell for what i've done'...WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE?! I have no idea...then it gets worse, no one will speak to me anymore. They look right through me as if I don't fucking exist. :sad: I find and ask another friend what it was all about and he too pushes me to the floor, tells me to kill myself. Then it all started, the self-loathing and loss of confidence...the urge to take his advice and just cut till the breathing stops. But I wont right? I can be stronger than that? I need someone to tell me I am, I swore 6 years ago I would never cut again but now I think I need to. I just wish I knew what I had done, if only they would tell me. I'm just glad I now have this place.