No money, bored and have had the heart broken twice by the same person who lead me on until she found someone else. I've signed up to ICS which is a charity in England whereby you get to go to 1 of 26 of the worlds poorest countries and help out local communities. If successful I go out in October, if unsuccessful I don't know what to do with myself. I'm not telling people this out of sympathy as most of the people in this world have it worse than me and I should be grateful for being born in this country with all the luxuries I have. I don't know what answer I'm expecting here other than "just hold on everything will be ok" which imo is not a good answer. If I come across as rude I apologise. Has anyone here had nasty thoughts and if so how are you dealing with it or how did you deal with it. I'm wondering if talking to somebody over the phone or going to the hospitals free therapy classes (yea that's right we got it good here so I shouldn't really be moaning and complaining) would help.