I've been suicidal for a long time, especially this past year. I've had severe depression, with constant mild depression. I also have anxiety issues, an eating disorder, and various other issues. It's not the same anymore. I am in a relationship now, with a really great guy. I've never dated before, so this is a shock. We talk for hours almost every day. I haven't totally opened up to him about my issues, but I still feel like he knows me. I want to be with him all the time; I'm actually going to see him a few hours. I feel so good when I'm around him, and when I think about him. He's my world... I don't have time to worry about other things. I've crashed a few times... hard, but the general theme in my life is good. I know it's not healthy to be this obsessed, but he makes me HAPPY and I don't remember ever being happy like this. I love him so much. I don't think about suicide as often. I don't cut as much, don't participate in eating disordered behaviors as much, and I'm getting out more. I'm also reading and writing again. I've been falling into the depths of depression for years, and I'm all the sudden all better? It's AMAZING, but strange. It's like, I'm here again... I'm real again. I don't understand. Is this just a fluke?