So recently I wanted so badly to kill myself that I decided it was time to call for help.I was put in a psych ward for 6 days and came out on christmas eve. The doctors put me on Lexapro and Risperidone and so far I'm not sure if I see much of a change.I am tired all the time,I used to be the type of person who stayed up all night and slept all day and now I sleep some of the day and all night.Its good that I am sleeping through the night but I just wish I had more energy.I feel numb sometimes like I may not feel like killing myself but i also don't feel happy either. I still have moments of sadness and get panicky and I feel like I'm broken and nothing will ever fix me again. I would love to know anyone's experiences on medication as well as the experience on Lexapro and Risperidone. Anything I should know?