Well call me stupid, but what the hell am I going to do with a tv and sound system where im going, That is my reasoning behind what i now realize is a very dumb decision, I blew thousands of $'s ( ummm every thing i have actualy..) at the casino and gave away all my shit, now the final step needs to be taken, but fear and guilt are the only things keeping me in check. umm i dont know what to do... If i stick around i will be living in agony and will have nothing, if i go.... i cant think of any reasons not to other then pain, help? company? hugs?