Hmm it's been a while since I've felt the need to come on here, guess it's good that I feel like I at least have somewhere to vent. I'm not so stressed out anymore, which is good, I don't get those nasty headaches that stayed with me for so long. I thought I was better, apparently not. I guess these kind of feelings never really leave do they? I found a document on my laptop today, one I had hidden so well, I wrote it out a couple years ago and added to it every week, like a diary. It was of how much I hated everyone around me and of how much I hated myself. Wow. That brought back those feelings of depression and anxiety and anger. I look at my scars now and I think, how? Haha. Not how could I do that to myself, how did I stop when I was hating on myself so much? I was so convinced it was the best way. I'm kind of proud of myself, even though I feel like I could still use some professional help. I'm proud that I got to that first step of getting out of that black hole, even if looking back makes me want to sit here and cry. I don't sh anymore and that is why I'm proud. This is like a weird thank you too, I know I didn't post as much as I could of, or shared as much, but you guys still helped, Just to know that someone was there if I really needed it. Thank you.