so its kinda like a cross between feeling nothing, and feeling way too much at the same time, constant self hate, depression, voices,apathy, the whole nine yards, things are getting out of hand and my doc seems reluctant to help, He says things will get better with time and im just bad at coping with loss, fucking bull shit. he dosnt want to adjust my meds, says it could make things worse. any way, i dont know where to turn any more, im out of options and no one is around to help, and on top of that i have a doc who tells me to get over it, I am incapable of caring any more and that terrifies me, I feel an intense need to end the suffering and i no longer care about who i hurt along the way, I dont even know what i hope to achieve by posting this, empathy. or just words to justify my actions, ether way im fucking done with every thing. if i feel like this in the morning its over for me, i cant take this any longer.