I have just decided I can't get through this depression. Despite the fact that I know people who do and that we are many of us in the same boat here, just trying to keep going. I took a step today that really could be the beginning of my end. Well, my downfall started over a year ago. But I just took a step on part one of a plan. In some ways there's relief because going round and round the same thoughts is just utterly exhausting.