And i realized that all the things i've said, i did not do. I said i wouldn't let my depression take over, and i did. I even told her to take a leap of faith. Guess i screwed up royally here. I said i'd do everything in my power to be a better person, and it looks like it wasn't enough to make a difference. I promised i'd be there for her. I guess after being a burden all these while i'd have to break my word on that too. I've been saying everything and doing nothing. It's no wonder things turned out the way they did. After all, i haven't been the most trustworthy person. Wow, i've been horrible.