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So I suspect I have starting melanoma ?

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agateaqua

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Hi all :)
Like the title says , I suspect it ,from reading online. Some old mole has a new little brown bump/growth on it .
It's not a scab as it's been there too long , probably 2 weeks now and it looks the same.

I off course am happy , this couldn't be better ! I do feel slightly guilty I guess though , I have my elderly mom who would be upset and off course my 9 year old son.
But still , this is my chance to exit !
If I had any senses /will to live , then of course I would have made a drs appointment already.

But now I simply am not feeling it. I should add that my son has been living for a few years in Europe(with his dad).
I 'm in the US , and I see him twice a year for a few weeks, way to little . Also due to my social anxiety, especially around travel etc.
I have not seen him since January 2nd right now. We (me & ex) are still in a custody court case , and it's all just so depressing.
Some things happened when he was 7 and visiting here for the summer and I feel terribly guilty about that (I had an abusive narcisstic bf at the time),
and I can't undo that summer even though I would do anything to undo what happened if I could :(
 
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I guess it's not necessarily melanoma, but it might be.

Some things happened when he was 7 and visiting here for the summer and I feel terribly guilty about that (I had an abusive narcisstic bf at the time),
and I can't undo that summer even though I would do anything to undo what happened if I could :(
Sorry that this happened. It's really your ex-bf that is responsible for his behavior though.

You're welcome to say more about that if you'd like to.
 

sinking_ship

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So rather than go get a mole taken care of you're going to hope it turns into a long and horrible battle with cancer? Whatever happened bad with your son, he still needs you in his life.
 

agateaqua

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So rather than go get a mole taken care of you're going to hope it turns into a long and horrible battle with cancer? Whatever happened bad with your son, he still needs you in his life.
A lot more has happened , I have not told the whole story, no where near. But I've been suicidal/lost the will to live for more then 10 years at least , so it's nothing new at all. Just now that I could possibly have some deadly disease and I'm met with guilty feelings towards my loved ones.
 

sinking_ship

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A lot more has happened , I have not told the whole story, no where near. But I've been suicidal/lost the will to live for more then 10 years at least , so it's nothing new at all. Just now that I could possibly have some deadly disease and I'm met with guilty feelings towards my loved ones.
No, I don't know your story, but I know your son needs you. If that's what keeps you here for now, hold onto that.
 
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