So, I thought about it...

And I decided that I've finally given up. That I quit. And even though Google has sent me here, I can't help but wonder why. I've made a rational decision. I thought maybe I could talk about things. That's why I signed up. Sure, I could call Samaritans,but I don't trust them. Not after last time.

So anyway, I guess this is mostly a hello/goodbye message. I'm sure what you guys do here will have saved some lives. Probably not mine, but good luck, eh?

 

welcome
do you want to share what has made you give up?
hope you'll stick around for a little bit and keep posting
i'd like to hear what you have to say

 

I'd share, but it's largely 26 years of unending hell, so I probably don't have enough time left...

 

I emailed the samaritians twice and got the same automated bull. They said write back to us when possible, erm how about now?!

 

Well, now I still don't have time. I mean, I type pretty fast, but I can't do twenty-six years of hell in an hour. Which, God willing, is all I'have left.

As for the Samaritans? They practically encouraged me to do it last time I spoke to them.

 

I have gotten many replies from Samaritans.
Are they confidential?
Iz

 

Completely. Just not terribly good, in my experience.

 

They ask you to type out your life in an email..... That's asking for spam to be sent your hotmail account. I doubt they wanted to know about the birth but they did ask....

 

samaritans was ok in an emergency, some emails better than others,
but SF is great
why rush things
why an hour
stick around and take the time to tell us what's on your mind
my PM is always open

 

So... Despite swallowing 40 valium last night, I woke up this morning. FMSL, I can't even to the right thing properly.

 

yep pills dont work, if anything cause more complications and frustation.
i researched many methods and its not easy to do, its easier to find help than to end it all suddenly.
stick around here, we are all nuts but a real great source of support!!!
take care and i hope things feel a little better for you today!!!

 

Please go to the ER..You need to have tests done to tell if you damaged your liver and kidneys..Letting it go is a painfull way to die...Talk to us and maybe we can help..

 

glad to see you here mm you did not give us much of a chance to get to know you to get to help you. I hope you stick around and see how caring this place is. It was this place that saved me kept me going please know okay know you don't have to fight the fight alone now keep posting keep venting so we can help hugs:hugtackles::hugtackles::hugtackles::hugtackles: