I actually really did <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. I can't explain how profound this is. I feel completely different. I have now decided to work my way out of my slump. I've decided to better my self physically and emotionally and mentally, and soon I will be seeing a therapist or something. I'm going to get through this and come out stronger and live my life. This is surreal. I talked to my two best friends online, who I haven't spoken to for nearly 7 months, and confessed everything. I came clean. Everything is going to be different from now on. I called my mom and told her all this, and for the first time felt comfortable saying 'I love you'. I just feel like life really isn't over for me yet, not this way. I'm going to soldier on and improve on every aspect of my life in order to continue and live the life of a normal person. I'm gonna take it slow because I've been completely isolated for so long, and I need to take it slow and re-assimilate myself into society. And I have to say, a very sincere thank you to everyone here. I love you all. The support I have gotten on here must have gotten to me sub consciously or something. I'm lost for words.