So I was up to kill myself....

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Cooki, May 13, 2014.

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  1. Cooki

    Cooki Well-Known Member

    I had everything done, I've written down a note for all the people I hate, and then I made a photo of what I had done and I sent it to my ex, because he's the only one that could help me. After a minute, he realized what that was on the picture and said he would call, either the police, me, or the ambulance, depending on me. And after that, I didn't want to hurt him.... So I left it and we talked for quite some time. Well, guess I wouldn't have died anyway. But somehow I'm proud that I'm still here, writing this down.
     
  2. randomguy9

    randomguy9 Put's the "Pro" in Profanity Chat Pro

    That is something to be proud of.

    Something that was said to me once... though im sure I am misquoting.

    "Get to the point where you are worth it for yourself. Meanwhile, know you are worth it to somebody else."
     
  3. Cooki

    Cooki Well-Known Member

    That's a nice one :)
     
  4. girlgonebad

    girlgonebad Member

    thank you for posting this gives me hope
     
  5. Cooki

    Cooki Well-Known Member

    Girlgonebad: :)
     
  6. Butterfly

    Butterfly Pokémon Master Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    So glad you are still here Cooki :hug:
     
  7. Cooki

    Cooki Well-Known Member

    Wanted to do it again so that I wouldn't wake up today... But then my boyfriend texted me "I need you" when I said goodnight. And I know that this is right, because he always calls me his angel because I got him out of his depression. I feel a bit strange today... First lesson off, so I'm still in bed, last lesson off so I only have 7 lessons.... And my ex probably ignores me for the rest of my life.
     
  8. cloudymemories

    cloudymemories Active Member

    If you are glad you are here that is wonderful news for you.
     
  9. Cooki

    Cooki Well-Known Member

    My life is so meaningless... So senseless... Worthless... The only thing I do is going to school, trying to get good marks, but what for??
     
  10. josh333

    josh333 New Member

    i know how you feel
     
  11. Kamisori

    Kamisori New Member

    One thing that I've come to understand in life is that it is only when you're dead that is meaningless. Death is the opposite of meaning, sense and worth. Therefore if you are still alive then you possess these things even if you can't see or feel it. It's only when you die that you truly lose them. If you can't find the worth, sense and meaning of your life in the grand scheme of things then look to the small, the simple, minute details about yourself and you will find them.
     
  12. Cooki

    Cooki Well-Known Member

    I feel so bad..... This night was the first one that I wasn't up to kill me. I could be proud. But since my class will have a trip today, my ex will probably think I had done it, so that's bad.
    @ Kamisori : I think that only the people that meant nothing to anybody completely lose all worth, meaning and sense. As long as there's someone to keep the memorie alive there's still meaning.
     
  13. girlgonebad

    girlgonebad Member

    keep holding on i know its hard, there is a plan for all of us you just havent found yours yet, either have i, i live to the blueprint
     
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