A bit of back ground. I have been suicidal for years. I didn't realize it till an attempt. I have tried multiple times. I have a variety of issues, PTSD, bi polar, shizo. Or so they tell me. I tried every kind of medication, but it always makes it worse. I had a lot of bad things in life. Trauma, pain, addiction, loss. I have used my support team up, my family is tired of me being "sad" my friends just tell me to "man up" my girlfriend left me. My councelor moved. I go day by day, never seeing that there's a tomorrow. Just trying to be happy in the moment. I lost my job, right after my girlfriend left. I want to go into the next world. But feel trapped in a painful life. Maybe someone here can relate?