I live in Mexico. My dad is American and my mom is Mexican. I'm in 10th grade and have suffered from depression since 8th. On January 7th my mom found out I smoked weed. (done it 3 times when she caught me). And she flipped out. I didn't stop, because it's not affecting my school work and do it like twice a week so figured there was no problem. Today I ditched school, in lunch. And IDK how the hell my mom found out. She started crying saying that I was such a dissapointment and that the only teenager she knows that smokes weed is me, and that she's going to tell my dad, and that he's going to be so sad and dissapointed and she wants to tell the principal that I smoke weed, which here in Mexico, is a super huge deal. They'll probably kick me out, and my mom wants to know who sold me the weed the first time I did it, and it was someone from the school. But he doesn't sell it to anyone. He just did me a favor. He's not like a dealer or anything. I don't want to rat him out because it's none of his fault. And basically I just feel like such a dissapointment. And mad. Why can't my mom just sit down and talk to me? No. She has to make a huge deal and tell EVERYONE. I just feel like I'm no good, and don't know how to kill myself. I've tried pills. Swallowed a whole bottle of <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>, and ended up throwing them up. (this was in December. they didn't know i wanted to kill myself. i said it was food poisoning). Now my parents are at work, and all of this happened a while ago. I just really don't want to make anyone suffer anymore. My best friend ditched with me and she'll get expelled, too. My friend who soled me the weed. The people that know that I ditched. I just feel like if i kill myself everyone will just forget about it and no one will have to suffer because of me. IDK what to do. I want to fall asleep and never wake up. So whether you try to help me by giving me tips on how to kill myself, or want to motivate me, go ahead. I want to see what happens.