I spend half the time I am awake crying. I cry because I am so alone and lonely. I want to die. No one can help me. I can't make people care about me and like or love me. I miss my cat lady who died Aug 2009 so much I just cannot hold in this pain, but have no one to talk to about it, except on here. I am so sick of saying the same things over & over again in my mind. I need this to end, I want it to end. Why couldn't I have been born with a stone where my heart is just like my sister and dad. How sad is it when you only have a computer and tv for company? How has the world gotten when you can't physically talk to anyone because they are too busy or whatever, and then have to come on a forum and type it all out?! I'm sick of it, absolutely so fed up with it all, I just want to be gone from this cruel life.