I feel like my personality, the person who I am has withered away over the years, like an unwatered plant left in the sun. When you spend so much time alone you begin to struggle to communicate with people, even with the best intentions. I'm more paranoid these days, and scared of many things. Disillusioned with life. When you spend so much time alone it becomes difficult to get back out there. Over the past few years i've got to a point where I have no real friends, no university course, career prospects, job, girlfriends, excitement, FUN etc.. I have possibilities but im so confused with everything and don;t know where to turn to. Everyone else my age is having fun with each other and moving on with life. But here I am at 20, alone, worried, depressed and totally disillusioned. I feel i'm in the wrong place at the wrong time. I can't get my head around that this is here and now, and this is my life. It's almost too much.