I am so lonely right now... noone to talk to, it is so hard when there is noone to talk... and i hate feeling like this, my life was never like this before. I dont know if it's because i am a single mom, are single mom's isolated like I am? when my son was younger we used to go to mcdonald's, to the park.... now he is a teen, and he never want's to do anything.. I have no friend's.. still.. they all moved two months ago, all at one time. that is so hard when you are used to having people to talk to and then noone.. This quiet town does not help either, it is driving me crazy, but when I talk about going back to california my son has a fit, i just can't win. I think about killing myself a lot lately, I wonder the best way to do it, i try to think of a sure way of doing it that is painless and fool proof, no more lonliness, that would be so nice. There is no way I can live the rest of my life in this small boring town, I would rather die. and my family is here but they ignore me, i guess it is fun for them to ignore me. I hope my piece of c*** father feel's good about the way that he has treated me since I have been here, if i ever get out of here i will NEVER come back, i will never let them hurt me again.