I've spiraled to the bottom, hit rock bottom as they like to say... I'm scared and alone and realized I have bad anxiety it keeps me from doing shit normal people do and it causes many regrets, I don't think it's a chemical thing, I think it's situational, always situational bad luck? idk but I know I don't know how to fix it. Tried shrinks and they havent helped. I have a feeling I'm going to die by own hands one day if it's not accidental.