I get like this. So low that all I want to do is stay in my bed, go on the internet and watch films. I am feeling so low that I can't even be bothered to self harm or suicide. It's when my mood lifts a bit that I gain more energy. It's then I can think about how I will do it, how and when I will SH. I can't even hide it at the moment. People are noticing that all I am doing is sleeping or in my room. It's then I remember how I feel and what I am like when I am like this and then it's bad. I am low and down then but this is when it's it's worst. Got PDoc appointment tomorrow. I really can't be bothered. I really don't like him and it just turned in to an arguement last time. I hope tomorrow I can argue back as if I feel like this I will just be sat there in silence. I can't be bothered to speak to anyone. I may as well not be here as I have nothing to offer at the moment. I'd rather be SHing or planning than feeling like this!