like where I should of put this. First it isn't really a thread. I don't need any replies. Secondly I'm past feeling suicidal. I am suicidal. I have taken the first step of three to carry out my plan. Can't put it in crisis cuz' this isn't a crisis. It is what I have to do and should of done about a week ago. It has three purposes. First to apologize for taking precious time from others that could be helped. Secondly to thank those who did try to help. Lastly to serve my own need. I am so tired of being alone. And I don't want to be alone at the end. And everyone has told me repeatedly that you are never alone at SF. So I'll keep reading the threads and helping if I can til the end.