i dont know why this had to happen to me! it started off GREAT! and i just wanna go back and live in those days forever! my family was rich, living in canada. With a huge house and a perfect family, it all started when i was in grade 1 got perfect grades and everything, had many nice friends until my family moved to another place and my sister (i loved so much and still do) decided to stay for university. when i got to my new house .it wasnt as good as my old but it was okay because i have my sister! soon i found that she wasnt coming. at first i was like okay thats not a problem, a few years later my grade began to drop to a C- my parents were pressuring me and telling me why cant i be like my sister. after thinking way back to grade 1 i soon found out that my sister played a huge role in my life, she was helping me with homework and cheering me up when i was sad, encouraging me to keep up the good work and lol playing with me when i was alone. now..? im alone in the house, my parents used to work at 8:00 am to 10:00 pm leaving me alone at the house for almost the whole day! without anyone to play with (i cant go out with friends or have friends over) . if only my sister was there. Now? im 15 going to 16 in a month.. little improvments my sister still isnt back yet.. my parents work at 7:00 am 6:00 pm and whenever there home i dont even talk to them because of past experience. my sister some times comes to visit but when she does im shy to talk to her, my relationship with is dead. she also got married i couple days ago, now i know for sure that shes never coming back because she has a great job a perfect husband and a perfect life. My childhood, at home everyday not going outside ever! and the bad part is my parents think they can make up my childhood through buying a bunch of crap! and people say im a spoiled brat and crap like that. i would trade everything i have for my childhood. People dont know that im suicidal my parents dont know my sister doesnt know. i act like a normal kid at schools have many friends and im crushing on this one girl and i hope to take her out on a date soon. if you met me you may think my life is perfect. but if you were me..