It seems to me that I'm trying too hard to keep up with people that seem to have it easy. I'm supposed to be in Gr.11 but I failed that grade, I went to Adult Ed. I won't graduate with my peers. I won't graduate at all. I've come back home and my Mom keeps yelling at me because I haven't gotten a job and because I'm sleeping on her couch. I'm supposed to be staying at my Dad's but her place is more in town. She gave my room to my brother, I don't belong anywhere. I wish I had a normal place to sleep, my own room. I won't find a job, even if I did I wouldn't like it and I'd probably be fired right away. I do nothing right. No one wants me, my Mom told me that just an hour ago. I want my brother and sister to go into a foster home, It's too late for me. I'll be turning 18 and then I'll be an adult. I'm already paying for everything, I want responsible parents. I want us three to have responsible parents, I don't want my life to be messed up. I don't know who to turn to, my Mom's told me that I cost too much. I already have a plan in my head, I've already written something down. I know it's selfish to kill yourself, but I guess I'm a selfish person. I'm not a good person, I'm trying to finish highschool. Right now I don't party, I'm not an out of hand teenager. Yet no one likes or can handle me. I've costed people so much money and time that if I were to end it...They may feel sad for abit but then you forget about that person. It's happened, I've experienced having someone close die but now it's like they're a distant memory.