Confession, I can't handle the stress.
I pretend I can, but I can't. Its eating me from the inside up and Im starting to feel like Im going crazy.
Tuesday was the icing on the cake when my coach told me that I'd been put on the bottom of the list. Last year I was top two for our club. But because Im working I can't train the same as I did before and it's costing me. He tried to be nice and supportive, but the words still hurt...when he asked me how I felt I said nothing..I felt nothing. He asked me a couple more times, but I honestly didn't feel anything till i got home and I was alone.
Everything has fallen apart. Im at the point where all i can think about is how much I hate people...how they can take advantage of you and cause so much pain...I feel tired and stressed out all the time...I feel like I can't do it anymore, and thats all I've been feeling. Anger outburst after anger outburst...there's no relief from it...it's like every minute of my day somebody wants something from me and I just want to be left alone...and I want somebody to listen...
I pretend I can, but I can't. Its eating me from the inside up and Im starting to feel like Im going crazy.
Tuesday was the icing on the cake when my coach told me that I'd been put on the bottom of the list. Last year I was top two for our club. But because Im working I can't train the same as I did before and it's costing me. He tried to be nice and supportive, but the words still hurt...when he asked me how I felt I said nothing..I felt nothing. He asked me a couple more times, but I honestly didn't feel anything till i got home and I was alone.
Everything has fallen apart. Im at the point where all i can think about is how much I hate people...how they can take advantage of you and cause so much pain...I feel tired and stressed out all the time...I feel like I can't do it anymore, and thats all I've been feeling. Anger outburst after anger outburst...there's no relief from it...it's like every minute of my day somebody wants something from me and I just want to be left alone...and I want somebody to listen...