so.. im just ranting... but speaking my mind. why is it im always ignored? am i really that big of a fuckup? does my mere presence cause everyone to want to leave? i guess this is what happens.. i have few friends anymore, is it because im so... whatever the hell i am? should i just go back to cutting? it might make everything easier to deal with, i think... screw what the fiancee thinks.. ill give it a day.. after that.. my body can self destruct itself..