So I ate more then a salads today, got mad at myself and tried to throw it all up. So I got made at myself for not being able to so I cut myself. Everything is so confusing right now nothing is making sense. I can't put a senstence together when i talk to save my life. I still on't now wetheer I am coming or going. Still have the overwheleming feeling I should be somewhere. he flashbacks are bad today, and were real bad last night.