im sick of feeling like this everyday, knowing that my life is 'good' by most standards. i have everything i need in my life, clothes, money, whatever. nothing seems enough. nothing seems worth it anymore and it feels like no one cares. im always being pushed down by this feeling inside of me, i cant even explain it but it makes me want to just kill myself just to stop it. id do anything for that. i have a way to do it, i can do it, and im hoping maybe ill be dead tomorow. 8th times the charm, right.