Suicidal thoughts but no good plan so that's definitely good. But wow I'm feeling beatdown right now. I got nothing left. I can't take anymore. And I know I shouldn't be alone. But with no money and no gas I have no choice. I hate that I get to this point. I hate feeling so powerless and sad. I wish I could just hide forever. I'm not really worth the oxygen I breathe. I wish I could trade. I could give my life to someone who deserves its. I just don't think I can keep getting through this. I feel so completely alone.