I'm sorry, this may sound very self-depreciative and even clichéd, but right now I feel just like I could easily kill myself. Last night my girlfriend, who has been with me for the past 3 months and who has given me so much affection and has made me feel so much better about myself, broke up with me because she doesn't think it can work in spite of the distance between us. Before I met her I never thought that anyone, anywhere, could ever have feelings for me, and now I feel so, so empty that all the gradual improvement I have made was all for nothing. I'm now back to square one; back to the old suicidal, agoraphobic, self loathing me. It goes much deeper than just a relationship; it's like anyone I have ever loved or had feelings for either dies, leaves or neglects me in some form. I start university again today, and I fear I don't have the backbone or emotional stability to go in there without worrying what people think of me. My mind is so clouded and lost that I fear I will never recover. I just need somebody. I'm sorry venting this, but I really wish for all this to end.